შვილის სიყვარულიდან – ღვთის სიყვარულამდე
deda mariams (erobaSi – medea jijeiSvili) bavSvobaSi araerTxel unaxavs sizmari, rogor mihyavda monazvnis tansacmliT Semosil qals sadRac. Tavad am dros vardisferi kaba ecva. eSinoda kidec am sizmareuli xatebis, radgan wlebis ganmavlobaSi xedavda, maSin ki bevri araferi icoda samonastro cxovrebis, saerTod, qristesa da eklesiis Sesaxeb.
mis gzas monastramde, romelsac saTave Tavisi erTaderTi vaJis siyvaruliT daedo, saswaulebrivic SeiZleba vuwodoT. ratom? swored amaze giambobT
cnobil baTumur ojaxSi daibada. uzrunveli bavSvoba hqonda, Tumca es tkbili xana arc dasrulebula, roca gaTxovda – 15 wlisam iqorwina Tavis rCeulze da ufalma saocnebo vaJi aCuqa.
– irakli (mefariSvili) ulamazesi, damTmobi, mtrediviT biWi iyo, yvelas uyvarda da misi gulic yvelas siyvaruls itevda. gamudmebiT siyvaruls afrqvevda. tyuils ver aTqmevinebdi, Tu raRac mizeziT iZulebuli gaxdeboda eTqva, aucileblad gawiTldeboda. uboroto, laRi, xalasi adamiani iyo. colic ase laRad, uceb SeirTo. eka maxaraZe gaicno Tu ara, erT dReSive CaakiTxa TbilisSi, megobari iaxla da ise sTxova ojaxs misi xeli. sam dReSi gamoatanes qaliSvili colad. bednierad, siyvarulSi icxovres xuTi Tve, sanam sarfis gzaze avtoavariam ar daasrula maTi amqveyniuri bedniereba. irakli 29 wlis iyo, eka – 28-is, – momiTxrobs deda mariami da cremlebi TavisiT, SeuCereblad sdis Rawvebze… 20 weli gavida am tragediidan, magram drom ver gaanela mwuxareba,
amboben, roca deda tiris, RvTismSobelic mis gverdiTaa uCinrad da masTan erTad tiriso. esec deda mariamma miTxra da isic, rom wminda mariamic mTeli cxovreba – cad amaRlebamde dastiroda Tavis Svils zeTisxilis tyeSi, am xis rtos Camoswevda xolme da isic cremlad iRvreboda, dResac tiriso is zeTisxili. . .
monatrebas dasasruli ara aqvso – deda mariamma. ra gasakviria, rom verafriT egueboda dediserTa vaJis gardacvalebas. ormoci dRe oTaxSi Caketila da aravis uSvebda TavisTan. ar laparakobda. mxolod cremliTa da tkiviliT misdevda wuTisofels. imdenad cud mdgomareobaSi iyo, gamudmebiT wamlebi sWirdeboda. megobrebma gadawyvites, raime eRonaT, rogorme daxmarebodnen da fsiqiatriul klinikaSi waiyvanes, iq uTxres, rom fsiqikuri problema ar hqonda, ubralod, ar surda laparaki. urCies, baTumisTvis, im adgilisTvis, romelic Tavis tragedias yovelTvis moagonebda, moeSorebinaT da TandaTan moixedavda sicocxlisken. aqeTa gzaze jer kidev manqanaSi isxdnen da fiqrobdnen, sad gaeridebinaT mSobliuri qalaqidan, roca maTTan iraklis megobarma, msaxiobma maia cecxlaZem dareka. igi swored am dros yofila yvelawmindas monasterSi (kaxeTSi) Tavis moZRvarTan meufe andria gvazavasTan, romlisTvisac Svilmkvdari dedis mourCenel tragediaze uambnia, meufe andrias ki uTqvams, rom masTan mieyvanaT.
deda mariami RvTis xels xedavs imaSic, rom swored gzaSi yofnisas, roca saSvels eZebdnen, daukavSirda maT meufe andria da imaSic – RvTis saxlSi rom daido bina. swored aq dainaxa monazvnis tanisamosSi is qali, romelic xSirad esizmreboda bavSvobaSi.
– es gaxldaT deda nino mazniaSvili, winamZRvari (iRumenia). man Tavisi kelia gamiyo, erTad vcxovrobdiT sakmaod didxans. diax, is iyo qali, romelic mTeli bavSvoba mesizmreboda da meZaxda, me ki, sanam samyaro Tavze ar damemxo, ver mivxvdi, rom RvTisTvis unda memsaxura, – ise miTxra kvlav cremlmdinare deda mariamma, sulierad SemZra.
yvelawmindas monastridan saxlSi aRar dabrunebula. CamoakiTxes ojaxis wevrebmac, naTesav-megobrebma, magram aravis wahyva. ase daasrula saero cxovreba da monazvnisas Seudga. Svilis siyvarulma gadaatanina usaSvelod gawelili 20 weli.
bunebrivia, ifiqreb, rom mkacr samonastro yofas miCveva arcTu ise ioli iqneboda, magram, ai, ra gviTxra deda mariamma:
– ar gamiWirda. iq CasvlisTanave imdenad Sevexe RmerTs, rom veRar warmomedgina, manamde rogor vcxovrobdi amis gareSe. erSi araferi maklda, samonastro cxovreba ki rTulia, magram madlma Tu Cagkida xeli, imdenad tkbilia uReli, yvelafers anacvaleb, veRar hguob advils. rogorc irems moswyurdeba wyali, mec ise davewafe locvas. gauTaveblad vloculobdi da kvlav locva msurda. monasteri didi ojaxia, romelsac RvTis madli ifaravs. aq imdenad didia RvTis siyvaruli, rom yvelaferi, rac erSi trialebs, aRaraferia masTan. RvTismSobeli Svilmkvdari dedis mfarvelia, ufali arasodes gtovebs da amas rom igrZnob, eniT gamouTqmeli Svebaa, aseT Svebas sxva veraferi mogcems. `ufali naTel Cemda da macxovar Cemda; visa meSinodis?. .~ (fs. 26-1).
yvelawmindas dedaTa monastris Semdeg deda mariami mcxeTa-Tbilisis eparqiis Tamarwmidis saxelobis dedaTa monasterSi aRasrulebs Tavis vals RvTis winaSe. janmrTelobis mdgomareobis gamo moZRvris, arqimandrit adamis kurTxeviT, baTumSia da Zalian eCqareba monasterSi dabruneba. masTan saubari saocari madliT da simSvidiT gavsebs. dRes 6 ivlisia, swored is sabediswero Tve da ricxvi, roca ufalma iraklisa da ekas sulebi miibara. did tkivils, romelic ar yuCdeba da samudamodaa dabudebuli dedis sulSi, monazonis locvis madliT anTebuli Suqi albobs da asxivosnebs. ufalma samudamo sasufeveli daumkvidros ori araCveulebrivi axalgazrdis – irakli mefariSvilisa da eka maxaraZis sulebs. isini dResac axsovT megobrebs, rogorc saukeTeso gulis adamianebi, moyvasisTvis Tavdadebulni da es mogoneba manam icocxlebs, sanam isini ivlian am dedamiwaze.
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