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bavSvobidanve xatavs, sxva profesiis dauflebis survili arasdros hqonia, radgan imdenad siRrmiseuli da mravalwaxnagovania misTvis mxatvroba, SeuZlebelia misgan mogvril siamovnebas, bednierebis qariSxals, vnebas, sevdas Tu sixaruls advilad daaRwios Tavi da ifiqros sxva profesiaze. axali emociebis Ziebisa da sakuTari Tavis ganviTarebis procesma gadaawyvetina sazRvargareT wasvla, sadac ufro axlos gaecnoboda Tanamedrove xelovnebas, SeigrZnobda iqauri kulturuli cxovrebis majiscemas. wlebia, JenevaSi moRvaweobs, xatavs da axalgazrdebsac aswavlis xatvas. miaCnia, rom Semoqmed adamians araferi aZlevs stimuls ise, rogorc axalgazrdebTan saubari, maTi qaosuri xedvebis gaziareba. dro male gadis, unda gamoiyeno TiToeuli wuTi da SeigrZno yvela is feri, romelic gaZlevs SesaZleblobas, jer argancdili emociebiT dagaxvios Tavbru, miaCnia gazeT `aWaris~ stumars, JenevaSi mcxovreb baTumel mxatars kaxa niJaraZes, romelic gansakuTrebuli siTboTi da siyvaruliT efereba baTums. Tvlis, rom aucileblad daubrundeba mSobliur qalaqs, romlis msgavs emociebs sxvagan versad iRebs.
– pirveli nabijebi mxatvrobaSi. . .
– bavSvobidan miyvarda xatva. maxsovs, mamis nayidi pirveli flomasterebiT gemi davxate, ase daiwyo Cemi saintereso mogzauroba mxatvrobaSi. mamida xatavda, biZac, Cems mSoblebs Zalian bevri mxatvari megobari hyavdaT, romlebic ikribebodnen CvenTan saxlSi. swored maT mirCies, bolomde gavyolodi xatvas, radgan maTive SefasebiT, Zalian kargad gamomdioda. ase, nela-nela ganviTarda Cemi codna rogorc teqnikuri, aseve SemoqmedebiTi TvalsazrisiT.
– ratom gadawyviteT qveynidan wasvla?
– wavedi, rom gamefarTovebina Cemi xedva, axlodan SemegrZno, rogor muSaoben, ras eZeben da pouloben Tanamedrove mxatvrebi. mogexsenebaT, interneti ar iyo maSin, Sesabamisad, ar SegveZlo maTi namuSevrebis daTvaliereba, arada, Zalian mainteresebda. bevri aRar mifiqria, axali emociebis miRebis, pirvel rigSi ki sakuTari Tavis Ziebisa da ganviTarebis survilma wamiyvana ucxoeTSi.
– rogori iyo axal garemosTan Seguebisa da profesiuli ganviTarebis procesi?
– yovelTvis miyvarda siaxleebTan pirispir dgoma. 29 wlis viyavi, sazRvargareT rom wavedi sacxovreblad. Zalian mesiamovna axali samyaro, mogzauroba, marTalia, yovelTvis advili ar iyo, magram ver vityvi, rom Zneli iyo sul. . . mgoni, aseTi cxovrebis gzas yvela gadis, aqac da iqac. . . pirvel rigSi, ucxoeTSi imitom wavedi, rom qarTuli xelovneba ganmevrco Tanamedrove xedviT, rac namdvilad iyo saWiro maSinac da vfiqrob, dResac aucilebelia. Zalian male gadis dro, ar SeiZleba gaCereba, mudam unda iyo Ziebisa da axlis aRmoCenis procesSi.
– gansakuTrebuli nostalgia icis mSobliurma kuTxem, qveyanam. ra genatrebaT yvelaze metad?
– ra Tqma unda, pirvel rigSi, saqarTvelo menatreba, Cemi mSobliuri baTumi, sadac davibade da gavizarde. is urTierTobebi menatreba, romelic vTvli, rom gansakuTrebuli iyo. ar vambob, rom JenevaSi adamianebma ar ician urTierToba, ubralod, iq sxvanairi Rirebulebebi, faseulobebi aqvT. Cemi megobrebi menatreba saqarTveloSi da maTTan saaTobiT saubari. aseve, menatreba qarTuli samzareulo, xinkali, kargi aWaruli xaWapuri, xarCo, qababi da ra Tqma unda, Rvino, romelic saukeTeso gvaqvs. amas imitom ar vambob, rom qarTveli var, magram qarTuli Rvino marTlac unikaluria msoflioSi, gansakuTrebiT, qvevrSi dayenebul Rvinos araferi Seedreba.
– ras niSnavs Sinagani Tavisufleba Semoqmedi adamianisTvis?
– xSirad vekiTxebi sakuTar Tavs – sworad mivdivar? xom ar davkarge Tavisufleba, Tu isev Tavisufali var? da maqvs pasuxi, ki, dRes me var Tavisufali, magram minda kidev ufro metad Tavisufali viyo. rTul process gadis adamiani imisaTvis, rom ar dakargos Tavisufleba, radgan xSirad logikuri Wkua, romelic irTveba CvenSi, gvarTmevs Tavisuflebas, mas warsuli moaqvs. . . Semoqmedi adamiani ki intuiciiT unda muSaobdes, intuicia momavalia. Semoqmedi adamianisTvis aucilebelia Tavisufleba, unda gaarRvio yvela CarCo, yvela barieri da SeigrZno yvela emocia, romelic Sens Semoqmedebas ufro sainteresos da mravalferovans gaxdis.
– ferebiT saTqmeli emocia. . .
– vlaparakob ferebiT da formebiT, rac vfiqrob, advilic aris, radgan SemiZlia abstraqtulad gadmovce ambavi ise, veravin SemekamaTos. namuSevari Tu sworad aris gakeTebuli, is yovelTvis iwvevs zust emocias, gaaCnia, ramdenad alali iyavi xatvis procesSi. gulwrfeli emocia yovelTvis poulobs Tavis gzas adamianebis gulamde, fiqramde.
– Tqveni naxatebis daTvalierebis Semdeg, rogor fiqrobT, ra emocia eufleba adamianebs?
– sulieri simyudrovis. yovelTvis msurs, adamianebma, romlebic Cems naxatebs aTvaliereben, Tvali ver moswyviton, imogzauron im samyaroSi, rac naxatSi maqvs aRwerili. CemTvis mTavari esTetikaa. tiloze roca viwyeb muSaobas, arasdros vici, ras gavakeTeb, virCev raRac ferebs, vakeTeb xazebs da mere vaSeneb, es yvelaferi ki intuiciidan modis. Cems naxatebSi Tavisuflebas vaZlev mnaxvels, TviTon daasrulos azri, hqondes interpretaciis saSualeba, miiRos saWiro kiTxvebze pasuxebi.
– mxolod erTi feri rom iyos samyaro, romeli iqneboda is?
– cisferi miyvars Zalian, bevri Tavisuflebaa masSi. caa Cemi da zRva. . .
– xatvis procesi hgavs. . .
– meditacias Sevadareb xatvis process, raRac sxva ganzomilebaSi gadadixar, romelic tkivilTan erTad, siamovnebasac ganiWebs. xatvisas vcdilob, koncentracia gavakeTo im nivTze an im sibrtyeze, razec unda vimuSao, rom sxva azrebma ar wamiSalos Cemi dinebis sisufTave. . . roca vmuSaob, viTiSebi yoveldRiuri fiqrisgan, visveneb, vfiqrob. asea musikaSic, mwerlobaSic.
– baTumi TqvenTvis. . .
– baTums mravalferovani emociebi moaqvs. Cems warmodgenebSi yovelTvis baTumSi vbrundebi da aq ganvagrZob xatvas. davasruleb Cems saqmeebs iq da davbrundebi Cems baTumSi. SeiZleba iluziaa es CemTvis, magram dabruneba da mSobliuri emociebi aucileblad mWirdeba. unda davubrunde imas, rac Cemia da rac me var.
